Fri May 30:
That’s the date that I last smoked a bifta ! – So on my birthday, I’ll have gone three whole weeks without any wacky baccy ! – Except, that since my birthday is a special occasion, and I’m hosting a party at my place – I’m actually gonna buy a tenner’s worth of green and chill out !
So, since I’m uploading my new album tomorrow – and I’ve started writing songs and doing vocals for a new band – I thought now would be an ideal time to start a blog (something I’ve been meaning to do for a while). The idea is that it will keep me focussed on quitting that nasty stuff once and for all.
The motivation for deciding to quit was actually for financial reasons. I was spending over £60 on cannabis every month – and since I’m going through a VERY EXPENSIVE divorce right now – and the electric bills for my four PC’s is higher than my head on a Saturday night (LOL) – I need to cut back and save money.
Plus, I’m studying to be a teacher and I don’t think it’d be right for me to sneak off into the playground for a sneaky smoke every day at school. So here comes reality to slap me right in the face like a wet fish….
SIDE-EFFECTS?
It sounds easy enough sure – and everyone says that marijuana isn’t addictive, but you become dependant on it – and the withdrawal symptoms are a real bitch!
For the first three days I was climbing the walls. Every time my computer crashed it was “the end of the world”, I was reduced to a 3 year old child throwing a major tantrum! Stress is just totally unmanageable when you have to deal with it without the numbing effects of my self-medication.
The next couple of days, I felt fine funny enough. A little more stressed out and less able to deal with disappointment or imperfection – bit I’m pretty useless at both of those anyway to be honest. But what surprised me was the other side-effects.
I started smoking this stuff about 7 years ago, and have smoked it in large quantities on a daily basis. I tried to quit it twice in that time, once with my girlfriend (soon to be my x-wife now) – which was totally impossible since she was like a raving lunatic without the stuff.
The other time was not long after we split up. I had this self-righteous head on, and I was going to beat it once and for all. Both times I quit smoking everything (even cigarettes), but had the help of nicotine patches which make you very sleepy and give you freaky dreams.
This time, I thought I’d continue smoking cigarettes – and just cut the weed out of my life. One step at a time…
The worst side-effect I’ve experienced so far is sleeplessness! – I can not sleep for all the toffee in the world. For the past two and a half weeks, my sleep patterns have gone haywire on me, and since I still have to get up for work every day – that’s a real problem!
Example: The night before last, I didn’t get tired until 3:00am – had to get up by 8:00am (so I only got 5 hours sleep). Last night, I didn’t get to sleep until 4:30am (so I only got 3 and a half hours kip!)
I don’t really wanna take sleeping tablets, cause either I’ll sleep past my alarm clock and miss work, or I’ll probably end up getting addicted to THEM (knowing me!) So I bought some Karms from the pharmacy when I picked up my migraine prescription.
I don’t think it’s helping much yet. It’s 00:10 as I write this now, and I feel awake enough to run a half-marathon (despite my lack of sleep) – oh and I have an exam at 8:00am on my birthday, so I have to get up earlier than I do to go to work!
Maybe I should try and score that green tomorrow, so I can smoke a little before bed on Thursday night – and hope it knocks me out for my exam the next day.
The other side-effect is feeling sick. Right now I’m drinking milk because I feel like I’m gonna hurl! – I probably won’t – but that’s a shame, cause feeling sick is worse than the act of vomiting itself. (Except when it gets stuck in your nose – I hate that!)
Anyway, I’m gonna finish watching the movie I started watching hours ago, and make a rolled-up cigarette – I’m smoking more than I did before I quit – but at least I’m only smoking tobacco!
PS: Another side-effect is the over-use of exclamation marks when writing blogs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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If you’re gonna take drugs, take them responsibly! (…and buy them off me! – I need the cash!!!!!)
